1. Why do distances on land eventually end up in becoming distances between hearts…despite of how much you endeavor…notwithstanding how much you have given in planting that tree, watering it,,feeding it and taking care of it in the best way you could have…but when all’s said and done , it all goes in vain…and you are left with only one thing …the agony of present times and a reflection to brood over throughout your being …”what was your fault???”
Reflections!!!!! March 23, 2008
Now a days…time and again… I am forced to deem that guys like me were born a touch luckier then others…and the rationale which my heart and my brain gives me for the same is coz I along with most of my friends are fraction of one of the most aspired institutions of the world…. IIT…as one of my uncles used to say when I was a kid…”iit…only the name is small”…but whats so unique about “iit”???..I gave this question a million thoughts and the pick of the litter was that you covet only one thing to make your life large from here…and it is..”dedication”…no matter in what field…let it be in academics,be it in the field of research,management,technology..or it is sports, music,fine arts…you just need to have dedication and the rest…I just said you were blessed!!!
Also for those who want to enjoy their life to the fullest …those who want to smell every flavor of life…I feel there can be no better place then this dais when you have your future secured…and the best part of all this is that you don’t have too many sexes over here so that they can hinder your progress…although at times we fervently regret the same and some of ma friends will kill me after reading this but to comprehend this better…you need to be a smoker(no offences to non smokers)…because only with a cigarette in your hand…with cool puff of air streaming through your face..sitting with your friends ,you get a feel that everything is in your favor…its then you start thinking high..then only you get cracking..subsequently you set sights on the stars…just then you start dreaming…and eventually make your own destiny…despite of how much I try but this feeling will always be too awful for words…anyways…I just hope I”ll be one of them!!!!
One on One wid life!!!! March 11, 2008
Well, I myself don’t know why I am writing this sort of stuff ??? But I know one thing…that I want to write…I just want to keep myself occupied…thats the motive behind it …you guys might be thinking…what is going on in my life these days…if I were to answer it in a simple way…I would just have said “shit”…yes I really don’t know who but someone is very rite in saying that ”shit happens”…it just happens in your life!!!!
Speaking about myself, I am not at all patient…and if I tell you that I am an engineering student 1st year…and that too from iit…then some smart people out of you can easily figure out the track on which my life is these days and reasons for it… is this the life I dreamt of???… What is my existence??…who am I???…what is my purpose of living???…why I should wait for tomorrow???…these questions have been troubling me for a long time…I really don’t know the answers of these questions…actually the problem with me is that I know myself in a far better way then anyone should know himself or herself…to be frank…I don’t want to accept the realities of life…however I have faced the consequences ….but still I feel that it should not have been in this way…I always want myself to be correct even if others are not…but life never goes like that!!!!
Life dictates its own terms and conditions to you and at times you have none other options left but to follow them…I have been the victim of same…if I am being true to myself then I can say one thing with utmost confidence that life has never taken the same turn in its course as I wanted …its been a game in which I have been losing for quite a long time…but as they say….”if u cant win a game…start taking interest in losing it”…so its easygoing now a days and words like these give me pleasure and inspiration at times…
Then pondering over one another issue, a major feeling…one important thought that has been consistently flashing through my mind….ya you guessed right…its “happiness”…as you would all expect I never tasted it for a long time and if I did in the eyes of others…then it never gave me internal satisfaction coz I never worked whole heartedly for those things…and they were never my dreams…now coming this far and at this point in life I feel that…human nature is so constructed that it gives affection to those who seem to least demand it…the man…,therefore, who endeavours to purchase affection by benevolent actions becomes disillusioned by experience of human ingratitude.
